Today was a horrible day. And a sunday! The few people I actually told this too were shocked ad surprised that I could not just have a bad day- but a bad Sunday! But I had a lot of things building on me that just...overspilled basically. One of my favorite people ever snappd at me....but it was my fault, and I had just been crying a lot and missing people and feeling very self centered about stuff and lonely and just sad....it was not a good recipe, then I felt jealous and ignored and ya.....not a good turnout. I dont really want to get into it too much....its all so stupid....It's better....not fully and I wish someone would just tell me that its ok, not my fault, they dont blame me...but I know I should have known better or could have acted better.
I just want to forget it all, but It was one of those days that some people might act different becuase of it. Which is funny, really, some people played such a big role and it effected, others will never know....some were in it but wont be effected....they are the lucky ones, because they probably came out improved in some way. I envy them.
This all makes sense in my head btw.
No comments:
Post a Comment