I've just seen a face....

So last night I slept over at the missionaries house and I was with them till 11, and then they are coming over to dinner tonight.  I havnt been able to decide yet if I am going to cry or not....so far I have done really good.  It is just really hard to think that in a week I have to leave my missionaries....=[  That is such a sad though!  =[  I dont want to leave all this behind.  But I am looking forward to meeting the new sister, I hear I will love her! I was SOOOOO happy today, I got to talk to Sister Judd! It was GREAT!  It made me happy!    But it is odd with Sister Coulson going home....she has been here so long, and I feel like I dont even know her that well! =[    I will miss her.

Christmas songs in summer

So last thursday one of my first friends left for school- Meaning that the leaving has begun!  It is weird!  Honestly, 6 months ago I thought that it would never happen....like something was going to stop it fro happening.  3 months ago It still felt forever away and my summer seemed so long.  Somehow my summer FLEW by and here I am with just 2 weeks left until I make that drive to Idaho!  Its SOOOO bizarre!  

People keep asking my if I have started to pack yet, and I keep telling them I havnt.  Besides the fact that I dont have any luggage yet and wont till this weekend, I have no clue where to start!  Other then my clothes and the couple bags in my closet full of stuff we have already bought me like sheets and towels and such, I have no clue what I will need.  I just stare at my room and wonder what to take with me.

My head is crazy like a jungle. I was joking around with  a few people 

last week how my head is so crazy and not many people could live in it, and they mentioned that they couldnt live in my head- which made me laugh.  My head is insane- I think if I stepped out of it or let anyone else in they would die.  thats a funny thought. =]  Not death- but the randomness that occurs in my thoughts.

Yesterday I went out with the missionaries and we visited this man who had ordered a movie and a Book of Mormon, and it was interesting.  Sister Coulson mentioned that I got to be with them when such interesting things happen- and that sure is true!  I have met very interesting people when I have gone out with them, like a Russian Princess! =]

But anyways....this guy that we talked to yesterday was in so much pain emotionally...it re

allly was a sad place to be, to see him cry and to know how much we could help him- but as sad as it was, and as much as he wanted to pain to leave, I think he felt comfortable with the pain and that will be the problem.  When we left the sisters were mentioning how sad it was for him, but oddly- or sadly enough for me- being around him made me feel better about myself.   I know that may seem horrible to say- but I guess it is realizing how your problems look to someone else and seeing how bad it could be and being grateful for what I know and can do.  

My last few weeks here have been interesting!  I have begun to spend as much time with my friends as  I can, like going on a picnic and playing Apples to Apples! 

Life is so 

sweet during the summer. =]

Are we there yet? Yes-get out now.

Yesterday was a fun day and exciting!  And I learned that I laugh at myself- which is good, but I laugh at my own jokes- which makes people laugh at me, not the jokes....that I am not sure is such a good thing.  But o-well.....

So, Me, Evil(Anam), Uncle Candice(candice), Megan, Saba and Laura went to Olive Garden yesterday....we wanted to see our other waiter David, but no luck.  Then we went to Pismo which was fun!  We had great joy in taking pictures....especially Megan and I when we got our pictures with our fishermen!  Even though

 one didnt even look at the camera and focused instead on getting the fish gut off his hands w

ith his knife very close to me.....ya.....then we got Ice cream to finish the wonderful day off!  Megan bough a stuffed animal elephant named Polanka at Kohls, which I wore on my head at 3rd wards Enrichment.  Sure, Sister Salvesen said it was immature...but others had a good laugha nd found it quite ammusing and I live to make others laugh and to entertain!  =]  So I enjoyed it!

Yep. 

This Morning and I went to the missionaries, and when they are in my day it just makes it so much better!  =]  Sister Beatse is definately not a morning person, but that just makes me laugh.  =]  I enjoyed it.  And they kept all my post it notes, which just makes me laugh.

Today I will have a lemonade stand. 

When Life hands you lemons make Grape juice and stand back as the world wonders at how you did it.

A bad Sunday? Like a rotten Egg.

Today was a horrible day.  And a sunday!  The few people I actually told this too were shocked ad surprised that I could not just have a bad day- but a bad Sunday!  But I had a lot of things building on me that just...overspilled basically.  One of my favorite people ever snappd at me....but it was my fault, and I had just been crying a lot and missing people and feeling very self centered about stuff and lonely and just sad....it was not a good recipe, then I felt jealous and ignored and ya.....not a good turnout.  I dont really want to get into it too much....its all so stupid....It's better....not fully and I wish someone would just tell me that its ok, not my fault, they dont blame me...but I know I should have known better or could have acted better.

I just want to forget it all, but It was one of those days that some people might act different becuase of it.  Which is funny, really, some people played such a big role and it effected, others will never know....some were in it but wont be effected....they are the lucky ones, because they probably came out improved in some way.  I envy them.  

This all makes sense in my head btw.  

A bad Sunday? Like a rotten Egg.